I forgive him now and I forgave him long ago. My sadness is not that he took him, my sorrow is that I never imagined the world without him. I never thought of my universe absent of his Star. Because of this at moments I miss him and there is my sadness.
I believe in a heaven on earth and I believe some may be choosing a hell on earth, B’s funeral was packed full of those he loved and those who loved him. You would have thought a city official had passed. He lived his life of love in a city of pain. For this he was loved by many. His Killer is alone and afraid at all times. He lives with a focus of destruction while I live in a focus of love and creativity. His world is constant torment as he lives his life of hate in a city of pain. It does me no good spending time hating him and drawing myself down to his level. I choose to spend my time enjoying those around me the way B would want me to, full of love and laughter.
B may have had more than one face. As many of us do. Yet the face these hundreds of mourners knew was one of love. This love, this force, this almighty never ending power makes the trees grow, the wind blow, and the Universe expand. We all know God is love. This means my Universe is filled with my Brothers Love! With his love I forgive his killer, with this love I pray for his killer’s salvation, with this love I have my brother in the growing trees, blowing leaves, and little feet. I’ll take his love and expand my Universe.
-10thLetter